The Scariest and Most Important Turning Point in My Life

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There are many crossroads throughout our lives, but when we choose to live mindfully we know those crossroads are turning points and a time to push past the fear and walk tall into the abyss of the unknown, for it is than that our light truly shines, no matter how apprehensive we are.

My Story

I never dreamed in a million years that I would walk away from my successful corporate job and never look back.  I had built a strong career, I earned a great income and I had a lot of nice things; even though that appeared to be my dream life, I was very unhappy. But when an unexpected job loss came, I knew this time things had to change, it was time to go inside to uncover the real me.

Up until this momentous transition, my life revolved around the importance of my title, my job performance, and how much money I made. If a job ended I never gave it a second thought, I just invested all of my energy into finding another. Even though I was very successful, underneath I was aware that I didn’t ever feel like I was where I belonged but I had no idea why or what to do about it.

Initially I thought I was just going to change the direction of my career; instead I chose to rip my life back to the “studs” for a complete renovation.  I was ready to stop having headaches, toss my watch aside and feel good about my life. Transitioning from living my life for an income to making a life has been messy and taken me out of my comfort zone, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. Now my life is about taking risks, living my life my way and knowing that I will never compromise my values again.  My life is richer and I have never been happier.

For years I believed that my life was the way it was and there was nothing I could do about it.  After several years of being awake, I now understand that I can choose who I want to be and what kind of life I want. Living in a state of awareness has been an inside job that defies everything I’ve ever been taught.  I truly love the woman I am becoming, it is work every day, but it is a job I’ve never enjoyed more. Since I chose to feel good and enjoy my life by following my passion, my life has changed and improved a million fold.  I owe a great portion of that change to gratitude and love of myself and my life.

A life of consciousness will always be filled with twists and turns, but when we know that we have a choice, we feel stronger and more alive. Every situation, no matter what it is, has been a part of the process of change necessary to be where I am at in my life today. When I feel blue or I’m hard on myself, I stop what I am doing, take a deep breath and reflect on how far I’ve come and where I am in that moment. I am amazed and proud to say that I’ve become a brave, courageous, compassionate pioneer of change.

Often people attempt to live their lives backwards. They try to have more of what they want so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You first must be who you are, then love what you do, in order to have what you want.~  Margaret Young

Thank you for stopping by.  Love and blessings

 

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